拋物線
watched many tv series, movies, and even a stage performance recently.
so many different emotions, flowing through my heart,
hence my mood swings.
went out partying, spent time with family,
or couped up at home by myself,
i think i have done them all, looking for ways to cheer myself up,
looking for that ultimate 'pick me up',
but the sense of lost only gets greater after each and every measure.
it is strange, how can i person not know how to be happy?
watched a tv series based on a letter kids wrote,
to his/her adult self at the age of 20.
i wondered, what was i doing when i was 20?
it's true, bad memories do tend to become vague,
tucked furthur away inside the brain.
when i was 20, i thought i found the love of my life,
that i would live happily ever after, in a place i love the most,
surronded by love and love one, green trees and blue sky,
life was just wonferful then.
but of course, the story did not end that way,
for i am still here,
writing about how i was at the age of 20.
what would i say to me, the future me, the me at 30?
i don't know, but at 30,
i know what i would say to the one 20-yrs-old me.
最近朋友提到了溫哥華, 突然發現, 一年又過去了.
身邊的朋友結婚的結婚, 生BB的生BB,
大家依然過著自己的日子, 地球一樣在轉.
前陣子, 沒有目標也沒有目的, 每天過的輕鬆愉快,
不否認有那麼一點落寞, 覺得己不如人,
一天一天的, 邁向30.
這陣子, 太多目標也很多目的, 每天過著被追趕的日子,
客戶追, 老闆追, 我追同事,
不知道什麼叫做周末, 哪時可以休假, 更沒有一天睡到自然醒,
想大喊'我受不了了', 但自虐傾向還是讓我寫報告撐到5點.
成就感, 落敗感, 期待心理,
一天一天的, 陪著我度過29歲的最後幾個月的期限.
From Grey's Anatomy ---
" No matter how hard you fight it. You fall. And it's scary as hell.
Except there is an upside to free falling.
It's the chance you give your friends to catch you."
" Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way.
Because without it, i don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real.
What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer?
Because it feels so good when i stop."
Great scripts, great show. I just love it.
